You'll never never know enough till its Over !

2009-10-15T23:09:00.003+08:00

I don't think I've ever noticed the power of attitude, self-belief and principles the way I have recently(with an exception of today!). Witching hour and whoa, don't I need one right now. I think I'm dealing with anger slightly better now. With acceptance, comes ceased anger within. Now that I've accepted, it's time to fucking progress.

I've been finding something wrong with everything today. Over-analysing thoughts and emotions. They're all over the place, in my head. jumbled. Heart feels juggled by an imaginary force. Only imagined. Cause it's not really happening. What am i even talking about?

Im always sayin things, I mean it, but I hardly got a chance to do it. I am a hard candy but with a marshmellow in the center.

Sorry Im sucha letdown.

Still when you irritate me sometimes, just sometimes, I feel like bitin you till your whole body gets sore.

YOURE SO CUTE WITH A YUM YUM TILL YOU RUB YOUR BELLY AND YOU PURR PURR.

Ok no, Im makin it sound like youre a cat, my greatest fear. Bahh.

Til' next time.

Mira.

2009-09-16T01:12:00.003+08:00

Mira showed me this.

noah: when i see something that i like, i gotta... i love it. i mean i go crazy for it.
allie: what are you talking about?
noah: about you

2009-09-10T04:54:00.003+08:00

I think I figured what my biggest pet peeve is. "Trying hard to be nice" people. I didn't realise how much I hate them which, ironically doesn't befit the idea of being outgoing, does it not?

But whatever, it's an utter waste of time trying to figure them out when they've got a fuckload of figuring out to do themselves. My silence and apathy ought to be their direction to seek help. There's only so much I can take! Something's gotta give, fact.

It's good to try knowing yourself inside out and fit the skin right, like a glove. Though I guess I should heed the necessary steps literally, but metaphorically? Yeah, that's gold right there baby.

Not forgetting, to the one and only,

To survive, Im glad she did. She's won 1..2..3..4..all the time , that this isnt a fight anymore.

2009-08-25T00:31:00.004+08:00

For all the shit we've been through and not forgetting the beautiful days that seep into our souls, I think we should at least make a toast. *To us & hopefully more years to come!*

I shall bestow upon you an entire lifetime of laughter, cuddles and snuggling together while the rain pitter patter on our window.

I love you for you, my love.

2009-08-16T09:47:00.002+08:00

i already told mylovelyone that im going to blog on my trip to Jakarta when i come back. well, here it is baby ! (:

Jakarta it was the place where my family and i spent our national day at. it was a short holiday, 3 days. but this 3 days , we experienced soooo many things. ranging from bad to good. all these years of taking SQ flight is partially free because my dad is working with SATS cargo so he gets complimentary tivkets every now and then . our flight touched down on Jakarta international airport at around 9am. after exiting the airplane, we waited for our luggage. yup, luggage , only one . 3 days mah . you wear the shirt at night you fold nicely put under your pillow . tomorrow take out, unfold, wear again ! hahahah . ohhh ya back to my story, we waited and waited and waited and waited then (half and hour later) i heard my dad's name over the airport's PA system. "paging for mr abdul rashid, please come to the baggage counter" . from that very moment, i knew that something had happened to our luggage. and i was damn right ! our luggage was left at changi airport . but fortunately it was on its way to Jakarta on another SQ . but the unfortunately part is, the flight that was carrying our luggage would be arriving in Jakarta at 2pm . and it was like only 915. the nice lady who served us said that they can arrange their staff to deliver our luggage to the hotel we are staying at. but we hadn't got any hotel yet . so the plan was, we go out of the airport to meet up with our "supir" (driver) and ask him to bring us sight seeing. then to come back to the airport at 2pm to collect the luggage . (fast forward) after we got back our luggage , we took a 3hours drive to BANDUNG. where we spent a night there . pheww i tell you ar , shopping with my mum and sis can bring damage to your brain. haha. you imagine a huge shopping mall packed with small retail outlet and cramped with humans. don't even have space to move about . one step back , you might stepped onto someones foot . one swing of you hand you might just ending up being accused of harassment. and yet my mum spent 20 minutes in one shop and then another 20 minutes at another shop beside the previous shop. wow terror ! as I'm typing everything down , i relive the experience . 3 days of shopping and i only bought one MAN U T-SHIRT ! well thats very much of it .

dayung sampan, AYUH MARI, dayung, dayung sampan .

its been a thousand years !

2009-08-07T23:20:00.003+08:00

due to tones of "project" and "test" i have not been updating my blog . but seriously, things are getting busy for me in school. the silhouette dream of finishing my course in ite is coming to reality. Hotel RE! called me for interview and the interview went well i guess. i guess getting a hotel to be attached to is an uphill battle. a total of, say, 107 students in ITE alone has sent their resume. so come on guys ! get yourself busy sending out your resume. or else it will be a day late, a dollar short! then head to peninsula to meet up with this two hilarious friends of mine , hakimullahhh sakapunela and zaki . we went to search for any shop that are willing to rent out their guitar to us. out of umm 4 shops, only FREAKY FRIDAY'S shop has that kind of service. and if you're wondering what on earth is freaky friday ? you guys just have to check out that shop. the owner he's cool for someone who has sagged his balls. he worship the legend the king of rock and roll , ELVIS PRESLEY ! he even keeps his side burns like elvis . he's one sick and cool bastard ! ELVIS , Hindustan version. after we got all the equipments we needed, we head back to clementi central where we had lunch at a coffee shop. gosh, saw a group of malays old uncles wankers drinking under broad day light , on a friday afternoon where they should be at the mosque performing friday prayers repenting they were at the coffeeshop drinking beer ! wah they gulped down the beer like KOPI ! wah piang ! PHWOAR ! dear pakciks , if you guys are canggih and know how to find my blog, please , puasa nak datang . umur pun dah lanjut. bertaubat laaa. hahahahahahahahahah. cehhhh bahhhh sikit ! performance was great. the event was great ! seriously . congrats hakim and team for making you ECM project happened !

dang! wont be celebrating national day this year. im flying off to jakarta first thing in the morning tomorrow. my mum is having her therapy there. RETAIL THERAPY !!! hahahah. fingers, keeping me busy. snapping photos laaaa ! back home on monday night. so to SINGAPORE, HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY ! baby im ssooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo going to miss you ! this absence makes my heart grow fonder !

all these years, ive been begging for answer. and now you and only you can give it to me.

baby, even if my sandcastle fall like falling cigarette ashes, i know you're there to build it again.

because i know you dont want me to be dragged away by every waves that hit the shore.

this wonderful girl of mine is MINE ! i'll be jumping up and down the plane when it touches down on Singapore ! i will go to the nearest public phone to call you and hear you voice !

i love you !

2009-07-22T23:41:00.003+08:00

It's 11.50pm and I just feel like writing before I sleep . I have class at 8am , which means getting up at 6am . Well , 5.55am , and then 5 mins to just sit up and gain consciousness to a safe level for me to walk to the toilet and bathe . I cant afford to be late tommorrow .

Anywayyy , it seems my life has taken a sudden dramatic roll . The turn was very unexpected . Of course , it was dreamt about , wished for . But nevertheless , unexpected .These past few months have been quite wonderful . Indeed , it is great to be in someone's arms and to have them in your arms ..

Everyday, I remind myself of you . I dont know how we actually got together , or what happened along the way , or even whats happening now . Believe that I love you, and havent stop doing so .

Ill be back with a proper update soon . Ive been caught up with projects and tests .

Till then ~

2009-06-09T22:03:00.005+08:00

Topic of the day: What is friends actually ?

There are many valuable things in life , but friendship may be one of the most important . to live life without the experience of friendship , is life without living . agree ? in my own thesaurus , (chey speaking eh) theres no definition for friendship actually . friends should be there and stick with you through thick and thin , big and small , tall and short . and not only look for friends when you are in need , in deep shit etc . people in this world are amazing and i have only experienced a few type of people who are capable of making an everlasting friendship and also people whom i think would just be friends for a period of time .

tomorrow is the day for the recreation and bonding committee . after all the meetings tomorrow is the "set , GOO" hope everything goes well and according to plan . and guess what , i will be emceeing the event . well thats all about today . a day well spent ! haha . ohh and i won the worldcup ! scored two goals ! terrific , wonderful , excellent ! hahahaha !

To wrap up todays post heres something for YOU ! <3>

I am like a falling star who has finally found a place next to you in a lovely constellation , where we will sparkle together .

trying to forget you is like trying to remember someone i never met .

SHEN MO DE NANA

2009-06-08T23:03:00.005+08:00

im bored, shagged but i got the fucking mood to blog . amazing !

news update: HK made a small farewell party or heavy breakfast eating with Mr Francis today . woke up in darn early very early i think the rooster still dreaming of being chopped and sold at ANANAS CAFE . dramatic eh . i grabbed whatever anything that i can to whipped up a simple delicacy . delicacy sounds so grand but its only scrambled eggs with green chili and onions . eh simple but niceeeee alright . waited for the wankers douche bag at clementi to go school together . never on time !
went to ngee ann poly to kick butt (play soccer) and goosshh after so long of not playing i felt like im a girl who just started picking up soccer. but somehow i did scored 3 goals . somehow. pathetic .

ohhh may be irrelevant but i heard that theres a saying astronauts who spend too much time in space will experience a change in the size of their head . according to scientific research when a person is in space theres this fluid in the body will gush up to the head . is it true or not i dont know but it got me so bothered and thinking all the sci-fi movies about aliens mainly those with the big heads and small thin body could be an astronaut who spend too much time in space . wonder if the other head expand too . hahaha . E.T got bored of earth and stayed in space for quite sometime thats why he's like that. the reason he came back to earth is try to gather as many humans to spend time with him in space so that he does not have to worry he's looking that oogly ! well enough of these faggot !

falling in love and love are two different feeling . falling in love can be either a flash of emotions or a first step towards love and gravity is not the reason why i fell in love with you .
falling in love is a strong instinctive attraction to the person of the other sex .
in case its mutual and both lovers will work at their relationships one day that feeling can grow into love . which what ive experienced .
falling in love is crazy to me, physically, its like when knees are getting weak and temperature rises .
and to me love is calm, comfortable and mental . seriously you have to do nothing to fall in love and often theres either nothing you can do to stop falling in love . its totally very illogical !!!
you suffer from splashes(splash sound effect) of emotions, doubts and can’t fully control yourself and its all because of a person you usually almost dont know.
when we fall in love nature shows all its power on us . sometimes it even goes against our sense when we understand that we cant expect nothing good from these relationships that its the wrong person but still can do nothing about ourselves .

i may call falling in love some kind of a temporary illness both mental and physical and wont be very wrong . some will say that its destructive, selfish, possessive, blind and give falling in love many other unpleasant definitions . but have those people ever been in love ? hah

to my dearest sweetest loveliest skinniest girlfriend i salute the both of us for everything we been through together as one not two not three like these phrase i love to use "one band , one sound" haha . you are someone i need the most in this situation i am facing right now

dear even if i work a lifetime i still will not earn enough money to pay the love you had given me !

i love you , SUMIRA

i had a blast on my birthday ! thanks to you !

2009-06-06T11:19:00.002+08:00

wooohhoooo . haven't been updating my blog much due to some technical problem . not !
well , yesterday was my 19th birthday and ohhh bestttt ! haha .
she had made such extravagant plans for me to make my 19th birthday
a memorable one and hell yeah she did it ! so we went to harbourfront
to pizza hut indulging ourselves with GOOD FOOD ! took a stroll down to the
waterfront and made promises to each other .(hmmm) hahaha

to NANI , ZAKI & AINI ! i thank you sooooo much for the extra little happiness you gave on the very special day !

mira, you have changed my life completely. you're the one who makes me special. you're the one who makes me strong. you're the one who makes me feel so important

you're everything to me.

i love you sayang !

pictures will be uploaded here soon .

2009-06-02T20:42:00.003+08:00

In the name of love and honour, I keep pushin myself forward to be worthy of somethin. You dont know how hard Ive been tryin, to the point of emotional exertion but I am never quittin because water cant be cut , because I cant.

I introduced a game new to her. Had difficulties hittin the right buttons, makin turns. Now that she's still on easy mode, I dont think she's quite ready for the medium and expert. Happy to see her like that.

Lets go fly kite one of these days (:

2009-05-27T20:32:00.006+08:00

Have done nothin much of late. My days are very very very routined. Holidays come quick ! Ive been savin for pracs . And baby definitely have been much of a help .

Myself and little girl have become beach bummers. And Ive got lotsa photos to upload but that can wait since my toe's aching like mad !

Not forgettin, its Mum's birthday today. Im gonna be Chef Bob tonight and sister's gonna be the chef assistant. Cant wait for that !

Ive got to meet a deadline on Friday. Im off to work on it .

Goodnight to you and you and you .

2009-05-02T23:14:00.006+08:00

Lets not talk about projects and pressure. Lets talk about... I just realised its already 2nd May. I really thought time flew fast last year but Im gonna have to say it seems to fly faster this year. I dont think Ive been noting down much of my thoughts lately, especially not here. Maybe cause Ive been casting them aside, denying them for true happiness with little girl :)

I get excited picturing myself like this (but in my own dream bike of course). Im starting on my pracs and Im glad baby will be there with me this coming Thursday.

But before I pass my license I guess I just have to ride on this to school . With the headgear, safety comes first !

2009-04-19T00:22:00.003+08:00

had a wonderful wonderful time with HER and NANI
just now .. went to tampines sports hall to take photos
of MERAHAN KNIGHTS during their tournament .
NANI was the out from the rest because of his
CAPTAIN arm band ! cool , he was doing his job as a
captain diligently.macam FHM ! (faham,understand) .
SHE was too tired even after the long sleep last night.
this is what happened when you are underweight.you
tend to get tired very easily.but let me tell you,this
underweight girl has an overweight appetite.if theres
a show,featuring HER eating,i would pay or die to watch
it.damn i love to see her nibble her food.just like a hamster.
ohhhh but she is no hamster.

*if i fell off tomorrow would you still love me?
if i didn't smell so good would you still hug me?
would you promise to ride with me till the end?
or would you POOF and disappear like some of my friends?
if i was hit and hurt would you be by my side?
darling im just asking questions to find out how you feel inside.
if im not macho and my size was like burgers in burger king
would be ashame to tell your friends that you're feeling me?
if i wrote you a love letter would you write back?
do you believe me if i tell you,you're the one im loving?
are you mad because im asking you so many question?
are you my soulmate because if so,damn you're a blessing.
do you trust me enough to tell me your dreams?
always remember girl we make mistakes,
to make it up I do whatever it takes.
I LOVE YOU LIKE A FAT KID LOVE CAKE!

this questions are all about US !

i<3you

2009-04-18T11:15:00.002+08:00

im going out with SUMIRA today !!!
OHH TIME FASTER PAST ! I CANT WAIT TO SEE HER ! GOD KNOWS HOW EXCITED I AM TO SEE HER !!

today is Abdul's floorball match .. and we are there to support ! they will be slapping the floorball with their sticks .. and im going to snap photos !

i'll upload the photos . thats for sure .
*all the best MERAHANS !

PHOTO TIME !

2009-04-14T21:52:00.006+08:00

nah , pantat .. your photo that you were so over joyed by .

everyday is not just a normal day when im with you . everyday is

definately special to me ! went out the other day with HER to snap

a few shots and up there are some of the pictures . not many photos actually .

well she wants her photo well she gets it ! haha !

my dear S.S + fakky + wan xuan + ahkim + kak noor .. photos of us at East Coast Park will be uploaded soon ! cheers !

2009-04-13T23:56:00.002+08:00

THE OTHER DAY , i wrote your name in the sky ,
but the wind blew it away . THEN THE OTHER DAY ,
i wrote your name in the sand , but unfortunately the
waves washed it away . SO i wrote your name in my heart ,
and forever it will stay .

LOVE YOU YAYA !

2009-04-13T23:10:00.002+08:00

a special post for you

this world darling , is special . its special just for you and me . the bond we
had is also special that one cannot see . the love we shared to me is just
like a river . not only it flows continuously but when it meets an obstacle it
will cut through it . but i ain't cutting or going through the obstacle alone .
im doing it with you ASS ! haha .

the word love may be just a four letter word . but theres actually lot of
meaning towards it . love isn't easy to explain , in fact there's even no reason
to fall in love . some interpret love as LUST .
some find love because of BUST . i cant think anything to rhyme anymore .
hah .
love can be expressed in a myriad of different methods . hugs , kisses , gift ,
and so on .

you know what , it makes me dead sick thinking of both our past years . cant imagine how
heartless and cruel these creatures can be . hey dey , even a dog knows how to love da .
but having the sick feeling makes me more stronger to give the bestEST in our love story .
do everything to make every single day a memorable one and to cherish them memories ! baby , this i promise you .

*if i could have just one wish , i would wish to wake up everyday to the sound
of your breath on my neck , the warmth of your lips on my cheek , the touch
of your fingers on my skin , and the feel of your heart beating with mine ..
knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you .

the past cannot be changed , the future is still in our power !

2009-04-10T18:23:00.002+08:00

wow , at last .. home sweet home . got back from chalet yesterday . well , to be honest , i had great time . now that school is resuming soon , im actually not prepared in waking up wise .

our class chalet was located at tanah merah and getting there was troublesome . havent mentioned about getting out . eventhough so ,i still thank JENA for making this happened . at
least we have fun as a CLASS before school re open . we slack , then we slack some more . played pool then played pool some more . it wouldnt be that fun without me boys (zaki , nani , mimi , samuel , clementS) ! you guys rock man ! oh and also , ME LOVE

ive been thinking about stuff lately . i dont know whether the thing that i was thinking about is actually good or bad . you see , god has actually created something unique , HUMANS . most human emotions evolved for one of two reasons . some , like fear and disgust these were necessary to everyday survival . my emotions , im not sure falls more to which for me to survuve . fear ? disgust ?

second , is , FRIENDS . let me share with you abit on the meaning of friendship with all of you and especially to whom it may concern . FRIEND is when two people share a strong bond of mutual understanding , respect and love . this is what makes a foundation stone for an everlasting friendship . lately , most of the meaning that i know about friends seems to prove me wrong .

oh ya , pictures will be uploaded soon ! ;)

2009-04-04T22:48:00.002+08:00

wooohoo ! after so long of not updating my blog , here i am !
well , let me recap what ive done past few days . ohh before
i start i want to CONGRATULATE the band for obtaining SILVER

for this year SYF . ya , thats one of the things that i did . we went to

Singapore Conference Hall to support the band . woke up early in

the morning . After the whole thing ended , ME , FAHAN , FAKHRIN

HASANAH , SUFIAN , HUI CHING , JOAN went to watch UNBORN !

it wasnt scary but JOAN'S SCREAMING & SHOUTING made me ,

fahan & hasanah scared . after movie , went to lepak at hasan's house .

ohhhhh , i sent sufian back home with fahan's motorbike ! 125Z ! haha

the following day , went to jog with fahan . after burning all the calories ,

i added more by eating prata . we chatted about the old days in band .

should go jogging with fahan , your stamina increase because you laugh

jog at the same time . haha .

TODAY , 4TH APRIL . i was prepared to rot at home , till sufian called me

to go roller blading at EAST COAST . ive got no money but the KAK NUR

treat us ! yay ! THANKS KAK NUR !!! next time i belanje you eat

BEN&JERRY ICE CREAM [tak halal eh] hahah . had a hell of a good time !

i shall upload the pictures soon !

chalet here i come !!

* baby i miss you !

2009-03-26T00:51:00.012+08:00

HENDERSON WAVE WITH MY LIL GIRL

TO HENDERSON WAVE AGAIN THE NEXT DAY

WITH MY FAMILY !! PHEWW

2009-03-26T00:39:00.001+08:00

HELLO

THIS SHOWS HOW BORED I AM ! (brain kinda not working right now) will update a proper post soon ! cheers (:

2009-03-23T19:06:00.003+08:00

Hello all !

Its been quite a reasonable weekend, I guess ,

considerin Im out of home almost everyday !

Its either work , hangouts, quality time with th family

and of course little girl too !

Anyway the other day , I had lots of fun hangin out with besties .
Not to forget, the sleep over at Hasanah's place too !
My brain cant seem to work , so Ill let the pictures do the talkin .....

AND...

Cant deny , I had a rockin ' good time with lil girl to Henderson Waves .
We weren't sure how to get there.
It felt like we were walkin for ten miles before reachin .

I couldnt stop panting , perspiring...(HAHAHA)
Mira being Mira , she couldnt stop laughin at me !!
Ill upload the pictures soon !

Uncle's admitted to hospital yesterday .
I got worried when I heard it from Dad .
We cancelled our initial plan to visit him last night , it was already too late ,
and so we did this morning .
Im glad he's all good now (:

Oh my , God knows how much I yearn for her to be with me right now.

Miss kau kudut !

EXAMS !!

2009-03-09T21:48:00.002+08:00

EXAMS !!!!! ARGHHHHHH !! two days and two papers only ! pyshc ! (:
been revising last minutely .. went to esplanade library yesterday to revise

with NANI , ZAKI , QING HAO , SAMUEL .. (the colours represent the jersery o the football club they supprting) hah.

stepped into the library , nani gan chiong looking for photocopy machine to photocopy
his notes !

well , i called miss deon in the library and little did i know that we are not allowed to use handphones in the library .. i didnt know man ! was told off by the GUY LIBRARIAN so awkward seeing guy doing library job. SISSY .

studied , studied then went to marina loft to munch .

went home after that.

i'll put the photos some other time .. something wrong with my computer .

adios !

2009-02-27T23:59:00.006+08:00

hello !!! its been a THOUSAND years since i last update !! well , today we went to watch THE BLOODY VALENTINE ! and DAMN its gruesome !! * not for the faint hearted . ZAKI sure did like the naked scene ! oh its M18 by the way .. you guys should go watch it !! ~trust me

ohhhh by the way , my dad bought me the camera that i want !!!

hhmmmmmmmmmmmm I LOVE YOU DAD !!!

HERE ARE THE PICTURES OF THE SO CALLED "OUTING"

2009-02-19T20:45:00.003+08:00

Its becomin a goddamn routine ! Ever had those peroid of time where youre are just so effin bored you could just die from cryin? diggin your butts.. eh heads.. just to come up with a plan everyone would agree with everytime school ends early because of the very same fact that you're bored ?

Yeah Im havin that goddamn moment and its pissin the hell out of me . Dont expect me to stay at home and just watch the birds fly by, its gettin frustratin .
I dont need parties just to make my life a pretty rainbow again, I just need meet-ups with friends and just enjoy the time that we're gonna spend. Let's hope for a better tommorrow !

On a brighter note, Im set out for a date with my girlfriend this weekend :)

2009-02-10T22:46:00.003+08:00

While Im still waitin for Ahmad to get back home, Ill do a little update for this busy prick.

It hasnt been very good for him. At times, he'd find his whole body achin, and still is achin.

Today itself is a pretty much rough day, with nothin much goin on in school(Ive been repeatin this for I dont know how many goddamn times already!) . At every moment I stared at his face, I sort of imagine this goin through his mind,

" Dear Awesome Schedule,

Another miserable day, but I made it through ! Thank you for makin it still be fun with the colleagues. I love workin with you. =.=" "

Ouh you dont know how I cant help wantin to be the one feelin that way instead !

Everyone's speakin of Valentine's day. Sometimes you think talkin about it would give you answers, or some sort of solution, but no it doesnt. Juuussssttt 4 more days to come. There's a place I want to be this Saturday to spend with my favourite photographer wannabe but fcuk the blank mind. I want it to go well so bad(considerin this is my first), I'd shoot the sunshine into my veins ! Ive got nothin planned yet but Im so excited to see Ahmad feel happy. I feel like my knickers' about to lose itself but tonight, my brains shall get crackin' !

*mira*

thank you for being there for me .

2009-01-26T13:44:00.002+08:00

i would like to thank all my friends for consoling me and being there for me.
and also to my beloved girlfriend . thank you soo much baby for texting me every minute
to check on me . may god bless you all ! <3

2009-01-26T13:38:00.002+08:00

1 9 2 1 ~ 2 0 0 9

IN LOVING MEMORIES
HJ AHMAD BIN HJ YAHYA

KEMBALI KE RAHMATULLAH
22ND JANUARY 2OO9

I LOVE YOU ABAH ABANG

to my dearest late grandpa

2009-01-26T13:11:00.003+08:00

life is precious . in my life , one come and one go .

day turn into night , and night turn into day , every human

that is brought to this world has to go to where it belongs .

its GOD who gives us life , and its GOD who take our life .

this hand of mine bathe him and carried him to his grave .

oh how painful it is to bring your grandpa to his own grave .

the moment i stepped into his room , i myself couldnt believe

that there he was , lying . cold . i kept asking myself , is it real ?

am i dreaming ? i just had lunch with him a few days back . and now , he's gone ?

during that whole week , iv been thinking about him .

i even wanted to bring him out to SUNGAI ROAD the place he love to

go when he was still strong . thinking that if i were to bring him there ,

he can relive his memories and be strong . but fate permits .

*abah abang , i know you are still here with us . and if you are reading or listening to what im saying , IM MISSING YOU ! AND I LOVE YOU ! i know you left us for good .

and i know you are in a better place . i know you can walk without your walking stick .

i have your blood in me and i will carry on the tradition . i promise to take care of opah .

i promise , abah abang , because you and opah raised me up ! and now its my turn to repay opah . i'll see you in another world abah !

*rest in peace my beloved grandpa !

2009-01-13T23:06:00.014+08:00

Wahhh .. bery long didnt update my block eh i mean BLOG ! well here i am again !

on the 29th to 30th was HA chalet !! and , here are the pictures . i know its abit tooooo outdated ! But here you go, some eye-candy for you people to enjoy while im still findin time to have a proper update here..

DAY 1 :

DAY 2 :

DAY 3 : Home Sweet Home !

*cheers

2008-12-16T03:40:00.001+08:00

************its amazing how you can speak right to my heart

without saying a word , you can light up the dark

try as i may i could never explain

what I hear when you don't say a thing

the smile on your face lets me know that you need me
theres a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
a touch of your hand as you catch me
whenever i fall....

you say it best , when you say nothing at all..

all day long i can hear people talking out loud

but when you hold me near you drown out the crowd

try as they may they could never define

what's been said between yourHeart and mine

YOU SAY IT BEST , WHEN YOU SAY NOTHING
AT ALL ! ;)

its late im im not sleeping !

2008-12-16T01:33:00.000+08:00

*hey jena ! no matter what , you're still my bestest
BESTIE IN ITE ! AND I DONT WANT TO CHANGE
THAT , PERIOD !!!! rock on baybeh ! <3

yea today is the chalet !! happy ? excited ? am i going to enjoy myself ?
we'll see ! ok ! seen too much words for today !

*do you ?

cool shit !!

2008-12-15T23:28:00.001+08:00

lets see ... erms , its another band day for me today .. went to back to bowen with my face all ronyok(crisp) . we only managed to play the FORMATION GAME due to time constraint . and for both games , group 5 won . but group 5 both different people in it .
must be something with the number 5 . well , i had alot of fun actually . if
only there was a band camp . ishhhhh .... i miss those days when im still in band !
the pain , the tears , the sweat and even the blood !! all those suffering are nothing when i look at back at it ! small the pieces only ! hahaha ...

im looking forward for PERCUSSION CHALET AND ALSO MY CLASS CHALET !!!!

last night i discussed with my parent that i wanted to buy a DSLR camera but guess what , they gave me a nagging instead . my dad says that i have too many interest
was quite pissed off but , what they say seriously make sense . they are my parents after all ... i shall work hard to buy that freaking EXPENSIVE camera !!

*to me , in a relationship there are no winners or losers . it takes a crane to build a crane . its takes two floor to make a storey . its take an egg to make a hen , it takes a hen to make an egg , there is no end to what im saying . it takes a thought to make it work . its take some work to make an action . it takes some work to make it work , it takes some good it make it hurt it takes some bad for satisfaction . IT TAKES NO TIME TO FALL IN LOVE , BUT IT TAKES YOU YEARS TO KNOW WHAT LOVE IS !

**ive been missing you since the day you left me . you should know that i need you in my life daily . i was an idiot but your love change and you why did you leave me ? ive been thinking about the memories , reminiscing bout you and me , thinking how it use d to be whether i treat you bad ? but you know mylovelyone , i do care and i know that every relationship have weasr and tear but if only you could draw yourself near me and listen to what my heart say . my days and many nights , many heartbreaks and so many fights , but sad you love for me has died . never meant to cause you any pain , dear i never meant to treat you lame . give one more chance to rewind and come back again. dont let this love die . I NEVER THOUGHT LOSING AND FORGETTING YOU WAS SOOOOO HARD . if you just realise .

WOW TERROR !

2008-12-14T21:28:00.004+08:00

wow ! can you believe it ? i finally start to update my blog !

its time for my fingers to do the talking and maybe cursing !

woah , recently alot of shits have been happening in my class man ! its like WOW TERROR !

and when i heard what happened , i was shocked and couldnt believe it . i think even ripleys will not believe it ! aiyoyo thambi ! what telah happened !

thats why i think its important to choose the right person to make friend with . never tell them too much ! because they might end up sucking you into their nose ! i dont know what the hell am i talking !

as for today , i did nothing much except sleeping ! wake up just to go to the toilet . darn freaking tired !

anyway , yesterday had to wake up early in the morning even though its a SATURDAY for band and thanks fahan for waking up late ! oh ya , fahan is my senior and he sleeps like a pig ! called him for like 20 over times ! waited for him till i was super late then end up taking cab to school .

anyway , it was waking up early . we played find the captain's ball eh sorry i mean we played captain ball. and you know what ? we played using cabbage , fish ball , and the most powderful one , its deadly , its stinky , its wet , and im sure its regretful touching it , its none other than JOAN POH XUE HUA'S SOCKS ! guess what . she left it in her shoe since Thursday . AMAZING !

see ya ... (:
dont report police

2008-12-13T10:43:00.002+08:00

Hello and good mornin to everyone. Mira here hackin into Ahmad's account. He'll be postin his first entry ever anytime soon. And I bet Ahmad's gonna bring you guys some fun readin though his music of life with every note!

*He's got nice TIGHT(umph!) ass everyone would drool for*